Her eyes gaped in the chasm where his heart laid vulnerable

When i was editing my story, I am surprised at my use of english!

okay i have finished reading perfect match. the ending is really woah. i didnt know caleb would reallyhave killed father gwen. i was really struck by how parents could go to such lengths and deny it for their very children. awesome. i just got plain truth and second glance. hoping to start on second glance asap.

if trying to change what you cannot control just makes matters worse, run away. run far far away even if you have nowhere to go. you will get peace for the moment and you will soon start living for such moments. in the end, you'll be a better person.

I AM SHORTLISTED FOR DESIGN SINGAPORE SCHOLARSHIP.

OH MY GOSH.

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just waiting for this to come to singapore in topman. its a normal shoe i know but i was looking for one that isnt chunky and made of canvas, hence this topman one. its out in the website but not in stores. hence the wait. it shld cost about SD$35 here. waiting!

perfect match

perfect match is a great book. i read a few pages everyday. i had a peek into the mind of a mother with a child. it was really traumatic and a big eye-opener. i could not encomass the vastity of the love till i see every thought process expressed in her perspective in the book. although the plot at some parts were very predictable, i was still pulled by the relationships she built. i am halfway through the book and it seems too much is revealed, so i speculate more twists for the 2nd half. i'm excited.

still nothing beats my favorite, Salem Falls. i dont know why but ya. to piccoult, pls dont produce anymore my sisters keeper crap. i prefer your older ones somehow.

i have learnt to really do nothing everyday i love this!

WITH PEACHES, MY HALO SLIPS DOWN TO MY NECK.

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yay my mum promised me a G-shock for my 21st birthday! I've always wanted one. Always thought it was a cool thing to own a black G-shock. i will geddit i will!

theres this steet label called Pescados and they creates the cheapest and nicest shorts that hits the knee and aint baggy nor high. (GSS makes them $25 and 35).  i bought like 2 there today. dont need tailoring or whatsoever. will definately visit the store again! 

and as of now i am downloadin my brothers SIMS 3 on my computer. June blues is gone!!!

i am in bliss now. unlike yesterday...

sadness overwhelms me now

Okay today was an intense session of finalising my eurotrip. in the end it was a NO. 

for those who are really interested in my schedule for about 1 month of travelling in summer period to Europe, you may follow my plan. heres it the watered down version:

EUROPE TOUR 2009
Touh down in London LHR

Great Britain
London 8th June(morning) -10th June(morning)
About 3 days hostel (3d2n)
Free:
• Change of guard 11am at Buckingham Palace
• Museum of London
• The national Gallery London
• Tate Mordern Art
Other Places of Interest:
1) Evening on Primrose hill. (primrosehill.com)
2) England soccer match
3) Wembley Stadium
4) Tower Bridge
5) Tower of London
6) National Gallery (free entry)
7) Westminister’s Abbey
8) St Pauls Cathedral
9) Global Theatre
10) Royal academy Summer exhibition
11) Shakespeare’s globe theatre
12) Southwark Cathedral ( Shakespeare and Chaucer’s church)

Italy
Milan

11th june(evening) to 14th june
About 3 days hostel. (3d2n)

Rome (2d2n)
Free places:
• Protestant Cemetery - Rome’s Non-Catholic Cemetery has possibly the highest density of famous and important graves anywhere in the world, including poets Shelley and Keats,
• The Scala Santa, or Holy Staircase - According to tradition, the staircases were part of the praetorium of Pilate in Jerusalem, hence were sanctified by the footsteps of Jesus Christ.
• Teatro di Marcello-Ancient Theatre
• Via Appia Antica-Beautiful Park
• The Pantheon-Temple
Other places of interest:
1) The Colosseum
2) Forum
3) Trevi Fountain (Fontana di Trevi)
4) Basilica of St Peter in The Vatican
5) The Sistine Chapel in The Vatican
6) Piazza del Campidoglio
7) Vatican City
8) Piazza Navona
9) Stadio De Marni
10) Paazzo della civilta del lavoro
11) Pantheon
12) St peter’s basilica
13) Victor Emmanuel Monument
14) Museo e galleria Borghese
15) foro romano
16) Fontana di trevi
17) musei vaticani
18) Arc of Constantine

Venice 15th to 16th june (2d2n)
1) Chiesa del Redentore
2) Chiesa di San Giorgio del Greci
3) Basilica di santa maria della salute
4) Palazzo Ducale
5) Campanile di san Marco
6) Basilica di San Marco
7) Fondaco del turchi
8) Ca d oro
Italy take Eurail to

France
Paris 17th june to 19th june (2d2n)
Free places
• The Louvre Admission is free every first Sunday of the Month. The Grounds and Gardens are free all year round and one of the most popular places to visit in Paris.
• Galeries la Fayette Free Fashion shows by top designers are given at 3pm each Friday
• Sacre Coeur A beautiful church and on the Mont Martre which offer the best views at sunrise and sunset. The Sacre-Couer is definitely worth the trip up the long stairs.
• Luxembourg Gardens The centre for relaxation in Paris. The park, once only entered by royalty is home to magnificent sculptures and statues including the original statue of liberty
• Notre-Dame Cathedral a must see for all visitors to Paris, it is located onthe Seine and is free to walk through. Some museums within the complex will ask for a small admission fee.
• Fragonard Perfume Museum Since 1926 Fragonard has been creating perfumes by combining traditional craft methods with the most modern production techniques.
1) Eiffel Tower
2) Arc de Triomphe
3) Catacombes
4) Versailles
5) Boat down the Seine River
6) Musee Picasso
7) Musee Nationale d’Auguste Rodin
8) Musee de Cluny
9) Centre Georges Pompidou
10) Musee du Louvre (online booking)
11) Tomb of Napoleon (Eglise du Dome
12) Jardin du Luxembourg
13) Pantheon
France take eurail to

Spain
Barcelona 20h to 21th june (2d2n)
1) Cathedral De Barcelona
2) Museu Picasso
3) Santa Maria Del Mar
4) Estadi Olimpic
5) La Rambla
6) La Boqueria (market)
7) Catedral
8) La Ribera and El Born
9) Sagrada Familia
10) Passeig de Gracia
11) Manzana de la Discordia
12) Casa Mila
13) Park Guell
Spain take Eurail to Netherlands (pretty long trip)

Netherlands 21th to 25th june (2d2n)
Amsterdam (www.stayokay.com)
Free stuff:
• Sandeman's New Amsterdam free walking tour – Expert Amsterdam guides share their personal stories and insights during this intriguing, 3 hour English-language tour. WE WALK IN ALL WEATHER AND NEVER CANCEL. THERE IS NO NEED TO PRE-BOOK; SIMPLY MEET US AT OUR TOUR'S PICK-UP POINT NEAR CENTRAAL STATION RIGHT OUTSIDE THE TOURIST INFORMATION OFFICE AT 11AM AND 1PM EVERY DAY, OR JOIN US AT OUR START POINT NEXT TO THE NATIONAL MONUMENT IN DAM SQUARE AT 11:15AM AND 1:15PM EVERY!!!
• The Begijnhof - an enclosed courtyard dating from the early 14th century. Built for a sisterhood of Nuns called the begijntjes. A very piecefull place to sit, think and relax.
• Skinny Bridge - The famous skinny bridge across the river Amstel and opposite of the Carré theatre in Amsterdam, is an Old Dutch design wooden bridge known as
• a double-swipe
• The Flower Markets - in Amsterdam is the only floating flower markets in the world. The scent of fresh flowers and bulbs are welcoming and the surrounding terraces.
1) City Centre – Nieumarkt – Southern Canal Belt – Museum Quarter (Vondelpark)
2) Natura Artis Magistra
3) Nemo (science Centre)
4) Zoo

Great Britain
London 20th to 24th june (2d3n)
1. Wimbledon

all the research/plans. eurail. eurostar.hostelhomes. the stranger called chris who told us she will send me info regarding the stonehenge in Borders bookstore. angela and jedi for offering the help. my aunt who'd pass me her bagback. the 40 dollar book on travelling on a budget. my dad who tried to send the tickets and my mum who was the final say...
THANKS FOR THE HELP BUT IM SORRY IM NOT GOING EUROPE ANYMORE

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Day 3

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the book simply tell me that we are all special. i didnt learn much. but from some kind of pesuedo-meditation i was enlightened the following: 

If we can detect God’s hand in his Creation, he failed as a perfect creator. If we can explain the universe scientifically then his work is flawless. But then things can become so perfect that we don’t even need to put Him in the picture. 

If we genetically modify things or use medication, it shouldnt be sinful if we are learning from God's creation and following Daddy's footsteps arent we? We are just studying what he has done and using the autonomy he granted us to do thnigs that is like God. I'm not saying we are gods ourselves but we are the curious beings he made us to be.

People do noot apologize often enough. How can we mean it everytime we apologize to God for our wrongdoings? 

in love with arber

i am in LOVVVE with this soap now.

dont need my deodorant/expensive collogne. this $14.90 body shop soap is damn good. it smells so good. like Burberry fragrance and the smell lasts. i bought like my 3rd tube today.  totally worth the money. i stocked it up in my drawer for ever use.

day 2

~2~

I didnt fast, didnt pray, didnt read the bible. if i dont see the need to force myself to do this i wont do it. anyway noone is supportive of my fasting/God thing. secondly i dont know, i dont really give a damn how in the past the people can pray until they heads can glow fire or can fast for 40 days and night or survive the lions den. i just want something tangible now not promises and faith-related reassurances that i have long grew tired of. some blanket i preached about yesterday was like a temporal film that lined a day of self denial, self sacrifice for something clsoe to nothing. its all human. the Lord is something so big. i am something so small. can he forgive me if i just cannot fathom his rightful existance because i am simply foolish? 

i am tired of looking at people try. i am also tired of looking at people who dont try. Lemme just rot la. im soo tired of trying myself. i go in circles. 

Day 1

~1~

Today I have read the 1^st chapter of PDL. This is not the first time I read the book but I am dong this again. Some thoughts after reading this, I have been reassured once again that yes, God created us for Himself and hence our purpose is He. No other earthly purpose would answer the meaning of life.

I felt it was a very modern take in religion to look at your condition first rather than the Christ died for us hence we are eternally indebted to Him perspective of this religion aka the biblical route to conversion. But I felt in this day and age, this self help guide is probably the best way to Christ these days. In the modern day people would be feeling an emptiness in this insane world.

 Whether loneliness & emptiness is the effect of Godlessness or simply the crisis humans feel in this I call era of indirect communication (sms msn email facebook generation), surely an ever-ready heart-living God is the solution to the insane world that we live in.

Sometimes when I read, I don’t absorb the familiar arguments the book preaches but when I read words of comfort, I feel a warm blanket covering me, making me more confident in the things I do. I feel protected some how from the inside because God’s word is near me and is freshly read in my mind. I fight off temptation/negative emotions/devil rubbish easier than if I don’t read it. For now that’s probably good enough.